Really

I just want to curl up into a ball and die. I am SO SICK OF THIS. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.

rainy monday

it didn't rain today. But i did listen to that song. And i haven't listened to it in forever. and its a good song. it makes me happy.

this morning. i totally forgot to write about my near death experience. Saren and I (me?) almost DIED this morning. I didn't want to ride the shuttle up to school. I have decided that i hate the shuttle. Saren had just woke up and so i asked her if she could give me a ride to school. I let her take my car cause i am nice like that. So we were driving up the hill. and then we saw our friend austin. and it being early morning and neither of our brains were properly working we both looked over to see him on the sidewalk. All of a sudden saren looks back and there is a car RIGHT in front of us. so saren SCREAMS and swerves out of the way so she doesn't kill my car. Then she does the whole protective mother thing and puts her arm in front of me and yells ARE YOU OK?!? IS THE CAR OK?!? AM I OK?!?! i just sat there. I was to shocked to react. i sat there for a few more seconds. then. i don't even remember. i don't think i ever said anything about it. it scared the crap out of me. please don't kill my car.

thanks austin for almost killing us this morning.

monday.

I have a class at 8:30. The class I have is CS 1400. computer programming. hate it. loathe it. but i usually can stay awake for the first bit. but between 8:53 and 9:02 i start to get tired. and i can't keep my eyes open. and i have to put my head down. to rest. its awful. and now i'm in the library. my 10:30 class is done now. i just have to go to class to hear people give presentations on their projects. and take the final and do my own project. which is going to be awesome....i hope i did good on my test!!!

it took me almost 2 hours to go to sleep last night. it used to always take me at least an hour to go to sleep every night. i don't miss that.

i love that my job always has the same or more days of than college. its very convenient.

i dont think any of what i just wrote made sense.

back to computer programming. i think my teacher is crazy. she LOVES computer programming. its unhealthy really. and as much as she loves it she's not very good at explaining it. at all. horrible in fact. i had fun writing the evaluation for the class.

really i'm done talking now.

go me.

Hello folks. I would just like to let you all know how incredibly awesomely productive I was today.

slept in till 10:30. Saren texted me and woke me up from the weirdest dream ever. Ballet dancers eating peoples extra limbs.....yeah....

ate breakfast.

cleaned the living room. vacuumed, dusted, go me.

saw ashley. you see she doesn't come around much. so we chatted for a bit.

got my haircut!! yay!! i love to get my haircut.

watched step up 2. AND did homework. I got 3/4 of it done for one class. and its not even due till WEDNESDAY. go me.

went grocery shopping. i got milk, yogurt, cereal, and 2 bananas.

cashed a check.

did MORE homework. whooooa. what was that. MORE homework. Thats right. go me.

And now i am writing this blog. I might even do MORE homework. Cause I am just feeling super motivated today. go me.

I went bowling on...Thursday. I went home on Thursday too. Good times. I had to go into my mom's work to get stuff for my project that I have to do for one of my classes. So i got to see the little brother at home. Who I really like. He's funny. And is going to be FIFTEEN at the end of the month. AND is going to be allowed to drive. Cause they give out permits a year early these days. Scary. But bowling. I think i go 76 for my first game. There were four of us in my lane and I actually beat someone!!! go me. I didn't do as good the second game...64 or something. But i broke 50 both times!! go me. So I am getting better. Bowling is super fun. I forget that its fun sometimes but I really like it.

Last night was the basketball game. We won by a ton. It was pretty fun. I have a hard time paying attention to basketball. I like it a million times better than football but i get distracted to easily. We had good seats though. Went to Village Inn after...i don't like to eat late. it was good though.

i'll be done now.

taking small break

I have a test tomwomw and also a big assignment that i need to finish still. But i need to take a break. hopefully the test goes ok....

hey! i went and cleaned the kitchen sink at angie's. Not by myself though...there was a bunch of us. i really liked the whipped cream. That was fun though.

I had to go to the african children's choir tonight. pretty much got choked up in almost every single song. it wasn't cause it was super moving or anything. I don't know. i am just feeling super overwhelmed today and the little kids singing just made me want to curl up into a ball and cry for a few hours. but it was still really good. they all want to be doctors, lawyers, and pilots when they grow up. and 1 optometrist. so cute. that was my last performance for art class. so i just have to write the paper and i am done!!!!

the people over at my house are all watching get smart right now...but i can't watch. sad. it looks really funny. i really think i would like to go to bed though. sigh.

good night though i think. and pizza. brad. this kid katie is dating. he works at papa murphys. and he brings us pizza a lot. to eat. and its good. the breadsticks are my very very favorite though. i could eat a whole thing of them i think. so yes. continue with the pizza bringing please.

so. tired.

I am home right now. Home home. In Hooper. Cause I needed to come home so that I could get my contacts. So I can see. Cause without them I wouldn't be able to. Just so you all know, I have really bad eyesight. I have had glasses since I was in third grade. Now you know. I am blind.

Its only 11 but I would really like to go to bed. But I can't cause I need to turn my homework in but my laptop is in my brothers truck which is not home right now. I love to go to bed rediculously early when I come home. The last time I came home I fell asleep at 8:30. This may have had something to do with the prescription cough medcine that I took. But still. It was lovely.

The fireplace in my house has a mantle/bookshelf things now. Its neato. My dad built it. He's cool like that. I didn't bring my camera home though. Oh and ps did I mention that my dad bought a truck a few weeks ago?!? Yeah he did. A big one. I haven't seen it though cause the scouts are camping. A truck though. He's been talking about it for ages and he acutally got one. I couldn't believe it. (There is a mosquito flying around. I THOUGHT THEY ALL DIED) So yeah. heaven=dad+truck;

(i don't ever tell my mom about my homework. cause she gets way stressed about it. so if she ever knew how much i didn't do my homework. procrastinated. she would probbaly have a heart attack. she's really stressing that i have 45 more minutes for the brother to come home so I can turn my stuff in. i just need my glasses so i can go to bed.)

and i will be done rambling now. good night.

one more thing. my little brother is turning 15 at the end of the month. which means he will get his drivers permit. which is insane. totally crazy. he is still like 7 years old i swear. if 7 year olds can be 6'2....

ballet

Right now I am not doing my homework. I haven't even started. Its due in two hours. And I have no plans of starting it. Which is a very very bad idea. But I don't care. (...maybe that's why i didn't do so well on the last test.....)

anyways.

I just got back from the ballet. Canada's Royal Winnipeg Ballet. Carmina Burana. or something. I don't want to look up the spelling. I liked it. It was better than the last ballet I saw...This one was mostly contemporary ballet which I've never seen before. It was good though. I kind of was wanting to giggle though the whole thing. Giggling in a good way. I guess? Sometimes I just feel the need to laugh. But then in the middle. All the boys got on their very short and tight...spankys...I'll call them. Or maybe boxer briefs. Pink even. It was bad. But I was trying to be the mature adult that I am. It was kind of hard because everyone else kept snickering and laughing. But I mean, come on, it was pretty funny.(to quote the little brother. "It looks like he's got a squirrel down his pants!" (david bowie. labyrinth.)) So I smiled and tried not to laugh. When really inside I was having a meltdown. hahahaha. I kind of felt like I was five years old. I kept laughing the whole way home.

ok. new story. School. Being kindergarten. Being work. Yesterday. When it rained and hailed like crazy for 7 minutes then stopped and was just freezing cold. I was on the blue table. Trying to get some things done. We were drawing what we had been for Halloween. (I wans't doing any of this. the kids. i was kind of jealous though) and there was this wierd noise and then a huge clap of thunder. Scared the crap out of me. Everyone went really quiet and I looked at my child, cause I was kind of thinking they would burst into tears. And then for some reason I wanted to burst into tears cause it startled me so much. So I had to sit there for a few minutes to make sure I wasn't going to break down in the middle of kindergarten.

I was looking through my pictures. And I felt the need to post this. Seductive.

ps. i just called my parents. and woke them up. sorry!

i like cake.

Today in kindergarten the teacher was explaining to the kids that today their parents were voting for the next president and all that. (they got to vote for the school tshirt design) Then she asked the kids to guess who the current president was. And this little boy, who is sooo sooo very cute raised his hand and said, "...President Monson?" holy cow. Possibly one of thee cutest things i have ever heard. It was adorable. So she said no and explained that he was the president of the church, and we have a president of the United States too. oh dear. so cute.

i have to go to the ballet tomwwom. My first and only ballet experience thus far in my life. was not a good one. I swear it was three hours long. and that is EXcluding the time it took for the fire alarm to go off because of some fireworks and for us to evacuate the building for a half hour or so. and then go back and have everyone get back in their seats blah blah blah. so. i hope its better than that. As long as the fire alarm doesn't go off. it will be better. apparently there is 3 seperate ballets...i don't know.

hw. no good.

bgd

i went to the howl for halloween. it was funner than last year. but seriously. i am NOT going next year. I know i said this last year. But....we didn't have anything to do. The band people were cool, it smelled bad really awful horribly bad, and my hair look freakin awesome thanks to saren.

sat was the football game. we won. we actually won a game. AND we got to sit on the couch. We know someone that knows someone. And we got free pizza. I think that is how all football games should be really. i would enjoy them a lot more in my life.

its going to be cold on wed.

i wish the sound worked on my computer. its super depressing. (it does work with earphones. but i just want to listen to it normal please)

vote. i hope my thing got mailed.

fhe=dinner=yum

saren likes to sing....hahahahah. i won't embaress her.

oops....

I work at elementary school. I get there at 12. Just in time for lunch and recess. We recently got a few of those red bouncy balls. The kids think it is hilarious to have the teachers bounce them really high in the air. they are cute. A few days ago my arms kinda hurt...i didn't know why. Yesterday when i was bouncing the ball for someone my arms were kinda hurting, soreish you know. I AM SORE from bouncing those dumb balls at RECESS. I might be out of shape? sad. really sad. sometimes we throw them in the air cause they go even higher than when you bounce them. And i totally chucked the ball on the roof. hahahahah. i was laughing so hard. The little boy almost started crying, i felt so bad. Usually i can throw it straight up so i don't have to worry about the roof. oh man. it was funny. so now we are short a ball.

Last night I had to go to this japanese drumming thing....taikoproject i believe it was called. It was soooooo very cool. By far the cooleset thing i have had to go see this semester.

lastly, i didnt go to class this morning!!!!! Its only the second time i have missed class this semster. i figured i deserved it.

AND. one last thing. i get to wear my pajamas to work today. On account of the fact that it is Red Ribbon Week. And today is pajama day!

I have to get out of bed now and get ready for work. peace.

nmkl

So pretty much these days I live on the computer. And not by choice. Since all my assignments have to be done on the computer and they take forever. I am always on this thing. I have already written 11 blogs this month. This is a record. I haven't written that many blogs in a single month since....a long time ago. (in a galaxy far far away) but. since i am on the computer. And all this crap is really hard i have to give myself lots of breaks....and since there are so many things to do on the computer. I check facebook like ever 15 minutes i think. Which i hate. Because its not that interesting. And nothing remotely interesting happens in 15 minutes. and i read blogs a million times a day. (i realize this sounds slightly creepy) but there isn't anything else to do. it gives me an excuse to procrastinate even more. blah.....blah......blah....alksjfoiweakmds zcxvoiweajf ldkj lcmcoWJLSF ALGOi;lskdjgl gla

Notes

These are my notes from my GIS class this morning. I thought I would share them with you.

10/28
Geocoding

~cholera~


I really paid attention.

monday

Its monday.

I am in the library right now with my brother. He made this slideshow thing from his mission and it was insanely depressing. I don't even know how he can stand watching the stupid thing. I was almost crying.

On a happier note. I have had this coat. And it has this things on the shoulders. You know that are there for decorative purposes. So the buttons fell off like two years ago. And the flappy things are always flapping around. And really. To be honest. It pisses me off. They make me angry. Every time I put the coat on I see them flapping around. And it bothers me. Sooooooo on....Friday night. I cut them off!!!!!!! Holy cow. I don't know why I didn't do that YEARS ago. It was sooooo nice.

Ok i must go. The brother needs his computer back I guess. Good day.

....I'm gonna finish this now cause I got kicked off earlier this morning.

Back to the coat. Really you have no idea how good it felt to cut those stupid things off my jacket. seriously. THEY DRIVE ME INSANE. (something smells funny right now...i'm not sure what it is)

Halloween dance for FHE yo. Was a very good time. I won cupcakes!!!!!!!! during the cake walk!!!!!!! And now we are watching Nightmare on Elm Street:Part 2. It just started and the bus is going down a mountain right now....creepy.

I was going to do hw...but im not going to now. So that means lots to do tomwomw.....

its almost friday

I figured I should write another blog cause I have alreayd wrr THere is a spider on the wall. Its huge. and the light keeps flickering....i think i am about to die. don't worry saren just got it...sigh. that was close.

anyways........i am on a blogging role so I am going to write another one of these things. Kung Fu Panda is quite the hilarious show. And my brother, bless his heart, bought me dinner tonight. Cause i forced him too. He makes a lot of money and is really not spending enough of it on me. Go carl's jr.

.....i am done now.

WAIT. I am going on a Pumpkin Walk tomomw!!!!! With kindergarteners!!!!!!! I don't know what a pumpkin walk is but i am sure it will be a grand time.

plus the school...elementary is going to be feeding me tomwowm for some lunch thing they do every month. woo hoo. food AND the pumpkin.

one more thing. i was looking at this email that utah state had sent out. and there was a thinger from the womens center. and i thought. Hey. I will look at cause that is where becki works at byu sorta thing. and guess what i found out. there is 6 lacatation centers on campus. So if you ever need to lactate i can tell you where to go.

fun=paint+dancing.

(in case any of you are wondering, my title is an excellent c++...problem. variable. thing.)

The paint dance was on.....last night? No MONDAY. twas fun.
it started at 9. we got there around 9 30 and they said that paint was gone.
but we managed to find some....














I like it. Paint is fun. It is much funner to dance in paint. Than to actually paint.

ps. my car is on campus right now. And i am going to be needing it tomwowm. Please don't let me forget to go get it.

...

Today I was thinking about something on the way to work and I thought, oh I want to write a blog about this. But now work is over and I have forgotten what it was so now I can't tell you about my brilliant....thought or idea or plan...whatever it was.

Speaking of work. I want like 8 kids.

Another on the way to work story. I was driving down the road and someone had these ghost decorations up in their yard. They were all holding hands and it was cute, and then I wanted to cry. I have really displaced emotions sometimes. If could even call it that. Who wants to cry when they look at Halloween decorations.

I did soooo very awesome with my homework yesterday. And I was totally planning on doing just as awesome today. But I think its impossible to do that much homework for two days in a row.

I'm hungry. I need dinner. All I have eaten is chips ahoy. They are good. Need food though.

I had the weirdest dream last night. It was about going tanning. I don't have the energy to tell you about it right now though. Ask me later.

U...E...AAAAAAAAAAAA

Its UEA. And I didn't have to work all week. Well except on Monday and Monday was a tragic day in my life indeed. I almost threw up. It was bad...oh oh so bad. But that was Monday and today is Saturday.

Thursday I had to come home cause I had to go to the dentist. If I haven't already mentioned a few hundred time I'll just tell you now. I HATE the DENTIST. I have hated the dentist since 9th grade when something tragic happened then too. So I went to college last year and didn't ever go to the dentist. So I haven't been in like...2 years probably. I was also supposed to get my wisdom teeth out two summers ago. Anyways. Its always in the back of my mind....Sarah you need to go to the dentist so you teeth don't rot out of your head. Anyways, the roommate Ashley went a few weeks ago and had...a lot of cavities. So I broke down and made an appointment cause I didn't really want that many cavities rotting my teeth away. So....come home on Thursday. Going to dentist. Got x-rays and she cleaned my teeth. ps. she didn't floss! Which i was very scared about cause my bottom teeth are all squished together at the moment because of aforementioned wisdom teeth and there is one of my teeth tooths? that hurts a ton when i try to floss. No idea why, of course I didn't tell the dentist this. ANYWAYS, sorry this is taking so long. Its just so exciting. Cleaning done, dentist comes in and asks how I am...I say, well i guess i'll know in a minute. A few dreaded seconds later................NO CAVITIES!!!!!!!!Holy cow, couldn't believe it. I had convinced myself I was going to have like 12. And....top wisdom teeth are still not ready to come out...so this summer.....hahaha we'll see. Travis didn't have any either. So happy day for me, Travis and my mom. woot.

I think my car is getting fixed. We took it to somewhere.

I have been trying to do my homework all weekend but its sooooo hard. I don't know what to do. I know that its easy i just can't figure out how or what i am supposed to do. I did get one question done though. blah.

i got a halloween costume. i am not sure how i feel about it. I kinda wish i could just...not dress up? i dunno. It will be fun i guess.

Yesterday i went out to eat with the fam +gma. They forgot we were there and the shift leader lady felt soooooo bad. so she gave us some free food and kept apologizing and thanked us for not being mean scary people. we gave her a good tip.

cin.getline

Well here I am again. Still not done with my homework. IT WONT WORK. cin.getline is evil. from the devil. it will not work. there are 8 errors and they are all cin.getline errors. And my brother has decided to turn off his phone???? its due at midnight. i don't think i am going to turn it in.

today was really fun. i did homework all day. after class i came home and ate lunch. Cause i am used to eating at 11 30, which is soooo insanely early. but i need food before work so i'm used to eating early. then after a wee bit of tv watching i went back to campus to go do homework at the library. i love doing homework at the library. i don't know why but just like the way it feels to be there. it makes me feel smart. after feeling smart at the library i went to the GEOSPA lab and worked on all my GIS stuff. i still need to finish it. there is soooo much of it. this semester my life is a neverending homework assignment. i'm sorry i complain about it so much but it is just so horrid and i get stressed. i can't even remember when my classes are. on tues i had to keep reminding myself not to go to old main, cause i totally would have walked straight there to...not my class. that is mwf. sigh.

i have 62 minutes left to turn in my assignment. i guess i should go back to staring at it somemore....

OMG I totally dyed sarens hair tonight!!!!!! i have always wanted to dye someones hair cause it looks really fun to use the dye and brush on thier hair and stuff. it was everything i imagined and more!!!!! i got to do it twice cause i bleached it then put this awesomely cool red color in it. i did forget one blond piece in the back....but you can't even see it. it looks soooo good though. which i am glad cause i was afraid i was going to mess up and turn her hair green and then she would kill me. i shall have to post pictures of the glorius event. but blogger takes to long for that at the moment.

saren just went to betos and she said she was going to get me a cheese quesidilla, which i totally and completley love.

(i have to go to the dentist tomwowm. i haven't been in over a year. i think i might cry)

I am trying to do the homework assignment from hell right now. It really is so awful. Computer programming is not for me. I don't even understand it. I have no idea how to even do any of it. If it weren't for the brother I would totally be failing because I don't ever know or understand how to do the assignments. Its just so stupid. She does super easy examples in class and then expects us to know how to do super complex confusing problems blah blah blah. I HATE IT. I honestly can not do it. I can't. I don't even know where to begin or what the crap I am doing. I just type in random crap hoping that it how to do it. Then I run the program and it fails, then I change some stuff and it fails again.....and this continues for a long time. I am done complaining. now. i give up.

Fry Street

So i had to go to this quartet performance just a minute ago...it was 2 and half hours long. Now it wasn't all bad. I did enjoy some of it. I kept wondering what happens if someones string breaks. does that happen often? what does the person do? do they have backup instruments? then i really wanted someones string to break so that i could see what happens....when that happens. the cello lady was super funny to watch. she had the greated facial expressions. and the viloa player kept almost hopping out of his chair every few minutes while he was playing.

i also enjoyed the conversation of the girls sitting next to me during intermission. girl A is on some pill....i think it is some sort of weight loss pill. But you aren't supposed to eat for 30 to 60 minutes before and after. and you cant drink it with pop cause it will just dissolve this drug...and all sorts of other weird stuff. then she says that the drug isn't FDA approved....only FDA something...i don't remember what she said. but its not totally approved for use. so maybe she is doing some study. girl B, who isn't taking drugs is talking about how you don't need to be taking pills to lose weight and pointing out all these other weird facts....but girl A is doing all of those things....i don't know. i would have been insulted. girl A also points out that fen-fen(phen-phen?) wasn't FDA approved either.....ok....cause that turned out so good(well)? so lets just go ahead and try this new drug and see if it works better........

will someone please take my test for me next tuesday? i can't do it. its open book and open notes so you should do fine on it.

i freaking love little kids. they are hilarous. i curled my hair today. and i knew this would cause some commotion among the kids. i was right. three or four told me they thought my hair was pretty. which is adorable. one kept pointing and wanted to smell it (not sure why), also cute. and one thought i looked funny. which is hilarious. little kids are never afraid to tell you what they think. oh yeah. and i got invited to play video games after school. which is also adorable.