i wonder....

okay okay okay okay. REALLY. NOW i am really mad. IT IS A BLIZZARD OUTSIDE. There are really no words to describe my anger.

So I am listening to Angels and Airwaves. Who I really kinda like. But I usually only listen to them in the summer. It's just summer music. Everything about it reminds me of summer. I like. But I got there most recent cd. I don't remember from who. There was a music sharing fest. So thanks who's ever it was. But I am listening to it. And I am thinking of the summer. And crying inside. I can't wait for next week. I am barely hanging on. I don't know if I'll make it. I have to write a paper for monday. Its on the history irrigation (which for some reason I can not spell.). I haven't started yet. The plan is to go to the library tomwomw. The plan has been to go to the library for the past 2 weeks though....but really. I must go. To read about irragation. And so after the awfulness that will be this week and weekend. I will have the paper done. AND NO WORK NEXT WEEK. Now that is going to be so exciting I can hardly stand it. And Vegas with the fam. WARMTH. can't wait.

um. I forgot what else I was going to write about. I got a bit carried away with the irragation and not having to work next week and the weather.

I have been reading a book called Resource Wars (i know you're so jealous). It's about as interesting as it sounds. Which I don't even know what that means. But I guess it was sort of ok. just sort of though.

I have a job interview on thursday. I am soooo very nervous. Job interviews are one of the most awful things to ever exist. But that would be good if i got the job. Cause then I could stay up here for the summer. And make money.

i wish it was warm. sad face.

bleh.

REALLY! SERIOUSLY! THIS MAKES ME ANGRY. THIS WEATHER IS AWFUL. I AM GOING TO SHOOT SOMEONE SOON IF IT DOES NOT GO AWAY. AHHHHHHHHHHH

ok. i feel better now. but only a little. my thumb hurts? i don't know why.

i'm falling apart. inside and out.

i had more things to say. maybe later. gaaahhhhhh

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its almost here.

I was just wasting my life away looking at pictures on facebook. gaah. and i was like, what am i don't?!?! how boring. I don't even know this person.

anyways. tomwomw is friday. and i really don't want to go to work at all. I have reached my breaking point. i am done. this happened last year too. There is only like a month left of college and things are getting crappy with homework and everything, and then you think about work and you're like ahhh there is still TWO whole months of elem left. TWO more months of THIS. i mean i still like it. but it is just hard. One of the many reasons i am so glad i decided not to major in special ed. cause i think each year it would start to happen earlier and earlier. and that would just be no fun. and then i would be the mean awful teacher that no one likes. and we don't want that do we?

homework. critical thinking questions. i am NOT a critical thinker. So it is kind of hard to think up questions. critical questions. and the state of the world and the environment. alkjwoiaajfadks


blah, blah, blah.

so glad its friday though soon. and the weekend. and sleeping in. and writing my paper. on the history of water? and the paretnals coming up for my brother's ward's family day. which means. linger longer! food!

i need to go to the library.

Greetings!!

From logan ut. in my bed.

I am sitting in my bed right now because i am cold. why am i cold? because its FREEZING outside. People, come on. its the last week of march. I need my warmth back before i die of hypothermia.

Have i ever told you that i enjoy the sound of typing. (as long as you are a good typer) I think its a really soothing sound.

i have finally got ahold of the ting tings music. and i like. very much like.

i have a show to go to tonight. the salzburg chamber soloists. i went to show on saturday. i have another one this saturday.

i have lots of homework this week. i have a paper i need to start writing. but right now i feel like it i can handle it all. well see how i feel in 4 minutes.

i have come to a conclusion.

there was mashed potatoes at school today. I love cafeteria mashed potatoes. I don't know why. i liked my elem, jr. high, and high schools, and now my works mashed potatoes. and the gravy. and rolls. i don't know what it is. Next week mashed potato day is wednesday so i am going to get them. i am excited.

today at school. we have a rhyme bag. the first item was a scoop (for ice cream) so the they think of things that rhyme with scoop. guess what word my child figured out ryhmes with scoop? mmhmm. yup.

i have no food. i haven't had any for at least a week. yet i still eat plenty. i'm not sure how that works out.

etsy. i like you.

today i got a call while i was at work. the lady left me a message to invite me to young womens, all were gonna do is come up with actions for the lip sync were doing next week and to just come to the church at seven and some one will be there to meet me or just head to the primary room where we usually meet for mutual and it should be fun cause were just gonna come up with something to do for the lip sync so hope i can come and can't wait to see me. only. i'm not amber. so i don't think she'll be there to help with the lip sync.

resource wars really is an awful book.

i got 67/70 on my last test. happy day.

end blog.

ok.

I think I have tennis elbow (I don't even know what that is...) or something like it. My elbow hurts. I wish it would stop.

Last night I woke up at like 3 in the morning and thought my alarm was going to go off soon. I finally opened my eyes to see what time it was. And I was happy cause it was 3 in the morning. Then I did it again at 5. I also have had some pretty insane dreams the last two nights of my life.

I have lots of homework this week. It kind of stinks.

my eyes!!!

Did you know World Water Day is on Sunday March 22? I didn't either. But it is. "People around the world are encouraged to celebrate the day to draw attention to the challenge of sharing water and opportunities." That is from the official unesco sight.....yeah exciting.

Utah State has their basketball game real soon. I have class...I think I'll survive though. But I don't have to work today!!!!!! Oh happy day!!!!!! I am so very excited. I love it when I don't have to work. Elementary spring break is in April and my brother is going to Las Vegas for a b-ball tourney (I HATE that word.) So I think I'm gonna go with cause I didn't get a real spring break.

and uh...there was some other stuff I wanted to write. I don't remember though. I had an emotional breakdown yesterday. That's always exciting.

Did I mention I don't have to work today?!?!?!? I did. But I wanted to tell you again!!!!!!

Oh yeah! I got headbutted yesterday. how fun.

Me and Saren have been watching Dune the past two nights this week. It's hilarious. I love it. I might be a nerd.

oh crap.

Can I tell you some sad things real quick.

Yesterday I lost my phone in the library. I had to go check out some books. And all of a sudden I realized my phone wasn't in my pocket. Oh crap. I went back and checked the shelf I had been too. No phone. Then I had to walk back to the other section I had been in. Happy sigh. Phone sitting quietly on the floor waiting to be picked up. You know when you get that awful panicked feeling? Oh gosh. So glad I found the phone.

Today. I threw my ring in the garbage. I had just finished washing my hands and it kinda felt like I had pulled my ring off when I was drying my hands. But then I was like, no it just felt like it. As I was opening the door to leave I looked at my finger just to be sure. No ring. Oh crap. Pleeeease don't be gross things in there, or have my ring fall to the depths of the trash can. I turned the little flap and it was mostly full with just the drying paper towel. That was good. I just unfolded the top one and there was my ring. Safe and sound. Happy sigh. That was close. I didn't want to lose this ring. Or have to go ask someone to help me get all the crap out of the garbage can...embarrassing.

so yes. A couple of close calls. Hopefully I don't do anything to lose my keys, or ipod, or shoes, or anything else I think is important.

But these sad things were only sad for a minute. Then they were happy.

Tuesday.

My wrists! Oh no! They hurt! Well not hurt...they feel funny. This is not good. Has Harvest Moon ruined my wrists forever?? Will I ever be able to play again?!?!

Homework is not fun.

Monday.

I am at the library right now. I like it here. It's so much easier to concentrate and do homework...which is what I should be doing...but I'd rather be doing this.

This weekend T-rav(the little brother) had a basketball thing down in West Jordan. So I came down home to go with the fam. They totally got slaughtered though. It was pretty sad. They were down almost 20 points for all three games I saw. sad.

It kind of feels like spring outside! Just a little. It's coming though. I can feel is. As long as it never snows again I will be happy. Cause I might die if it does. I can't take it anymore.

So for the last month I have been sort of sickish. I had my nose cold. And then my throat was hurting for a bit. And then my nose was being sick again. And I felt awful last Friday. And now my throat is hurting again?? I keep getting almost sick but then I don't. I guess thats better than being all the way sick.

Girl Scout cookies anyone!!!! They were all over the place on Saturday. But I didn't have time to stop and get any. But if I see anymore this week I'm totally pulling over and buying all of them.

Yesterday's Quote.

(said by 5 year old.)

i'm gonna have a shamrock cookie for st. patrick's day -- but it's gonna have to come outta my paycheck.

Big news...

I GOT MARRIED!!!!!

.....on Harvest Moon....I totally had you tricked for a minute didn't I? hahahahaha. I'm funny... just kidding. But seriously. I got married. I am doing better at this game than BOTH of my brothers. I am BEATING them at a VIDEO GAME. This is big. Real big. It's so fun though. It's not stressful or awful or anything. It does give me carpel tunnel though. ouch.

I had a lovely spring break weekend though with the family. Friday was my cousin's wedding. It was fun. I got to see cousins. and friends. and i think i already talked about this? (you see sometimes i think about what i would write in my blog, i do this in the car a lot for some reason, so sometimes i don't remember if i wrote about it in my blog or the pretend blogging i do in my head)

Monday I ate lunch with my grandma. I like her. And she bought me shoes! Two pairs! She bought them cause she never gets to see me. And she likes me. She's cool.

i'm back up in Logan today. Cause i have to work. Sad face. So i really have nothing to do till friday. Cause i'm going home again. But saren left her banana's. they're old. so i'm gonna make banana bread.

whoa

I just read my last blog. And none of it made any sense. I think I might have been really out of it. The punctuation marks are all in the wrong place and there is lots of random fragments. I'm sorry you had to read it. It was late though. And my neck hurt. So that's why it was awful.

Last night was my cousins wedding reception. It was quite a jolly time. I like going to those sorts of things cause you get to see long lost cousins and friends. And eat wedding cake. Which, can I say, was delicious. It actually tasted like real cake and had real frosting. And I enjoyed it very much. I don't have any pictures of the glorious event but you'll just have to believe me that it was awesome.

I'm off to take the little(big) bro to basketball practice with my mom cause her car was smoking last night????

later.

i can't hold my head up.

So i have decided to start my spring break early. Only not really since I did homework tonight and I had to go see a show. Let's talk about that for a minute. It was a contemporary dance thing. There was six of them . It was stupid. I liked one set of dances and that was it. The rest of it was really just awful. Dancing and just it was stupid. But that's ok I still had a good time. My neck hurts.
Back to my early spring break. I'm not going to my class tomwowm. But just the first one. I need to go to my other class at 10:30. Which stinks cause I still have to hurry home to be to work in time. And I don't even want to go to work.

Sorry this is sounding all so depressing and negative. or maybe not really? I don't care. I'm acutally feeling to be in a good mood. BUT. Spring break. I'm not doing anything. I will be working all alone and working all week. Except Monday cause I am not working and just oging to be home and chill with my family. And the other weeks goal is to acutally try and do some homework. I have some awful papers to write and I should do it when I don't have class and don't have to fill stressed. But you know that probably wont happen. ohhhhhhhhhh well.

i'm really tired.

oiewfalk. mmhmm.

Ok so I really have such an insane amount of homework. It's not even funny. TWO HUNDRED pages in TWO days? Yeah. I don't think so. We'll see how much of I can get done.

So I went and saw Slumdog Millionaire last weekend. Did I tell you that? Cause I don't think I did. Buy I'm gonna talk about it anyways. CAUSE IT WAS AWESOME. It was such a GOOD movie. You all need to go see it. The R rating....I can see why its rated R....maybe....I don't know. I might disagree. So please ignore that, lower your standards for 2 hours and go see it. You might cry. I just can't tell you how much I loved it. I want to see it again. Before that me and Saren went to Borders and were there for like an hour and half. I'm such a nerd. I could probably spend my whole life in a book store or library and just sit and read. But that probably wouldn't be best. Then we went to Home Depot and we helped Scotty pick out paint colors for his house. Then we ate at LaBeau's. I had the shrimp. Holy crap. It was delicious. I was a little scared seeing as it's pretty much a fast food place. It was super good though. Then we saw the movie. Which I said, it was AWESOME.

Saturday I went home cause no one was at our apartment and I wasn't going to sit on my butt and do homework all day. So I went home and had a grand time with my family. I got snowpants! They have suspenders. And I almost bought the most cutest adorable coat over, cause everything is onsale ya know, but I didn't and it made me sad. Then I played Harvest Moon. mmhmm. love it.

Sunday we had dinner for my brothers birthday. I just bought his birthday present. He's gonna like it. Then yesterday was school.......eajklwer lakwejr ahhhhhhh CAN NOT WAIT FOR NEXT WEEK. better yet the end of the semester. It's spring break next week. I'm not doing anything...so I'm gonna take off work on Monday so that I can sit at home for one day. Maybe I will spend my birthday money somewhere......do you want to play?

BUT. Monday. Should have been doing my homework...you know those 200 pages....yeah. I got some of it done. But at 11 Shane came over and wanted to drive up to Tony's Grove. So me and Saren got our snow clothes on and we drove up the canyon. It was dark. And creepy. And I'm a wimp. Trevor was trying to take picutres but it wasn't working. I would go again though. Maybe I wouldn't be so afraid then. I don't like the dark though.

OKAY. must go back to reading's of death.

i had some stuff to write about. but now i forgot it all.